I guise i still love her..

Dear princess Cadance, I guise your not to happy with me the way i've been treating other people and ontop of that my ex I won't go into what I done or said but I think you know.. I've been trying to move on and just leave her be with her new life but its hard there is not an day that I don't think about Kendra and what might have been. In my pride i turned away friendship and just chose my ownselfish desires In an way I only have myself to blame. I've been seeing an thepis about my anger and had came up about her and I guise underneath all of this is still part of me that still loves her even though she hates me now with good reason, I guise I am to blame and I am to blame. Iam still trying to be apart of her when she no longer wants to be apart of me.. I know its time for me to move on and find someone that loves me as much as she once did, but in away its hard.. Its hard by celestia sake to look into an mirror and say I have failed at both love and friendship. I guise in away i could have loved her as an friend but in my pride I didn't want that because I felt I could still make it work i decived myslef and I am still decving myself because its the only defense againist myself... I want her to be happy but most of all I want her to know i still feel strongly about her even though she will never feel the same way again... I guise loving someone means letting them go and to offten princess I let my ,loved ones go to offten. I loved my grandfather and grandmother now they are both dead, I loved my aunt and she is dead. heck i even love that one elderly women who kinda liked me and she is dead.. I guise I feel the same and still strong about kendra.. I want to move on but I don't want to say goodbye I know in my heart its time to say goodbye possibly forever because she no longer wants to talk to me ever again..I just want her to know one last time mybe in this writing how hard this all is being on me.. with her marrage and all.. Just know iam trying to give other people an chance that are near me... your faithful student Rob.. :(