For blogging out loud

I guess this is it..I was holding off on writing this for so long, but it has come to this point.. A lot of my role-plays have just died and I don't know what went wrong? I mean, it is possible that I am just trash at it, hell I'm trash as a person in general, so why wouldn't I be trash at trying to play as someone I am not as well? I know I am not mentally or emotionally well, that much is clear..this is not a cry for help...or is it? I certainly know I am not going to do something like cut myself or anything, worst I'll do is try to get drunk and forget things.. These songs kind of describe me at the moment. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pa3jyGj9NxI https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ZzM1DY4Lhw https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gdKeu73sUI https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n9aVWsPgsxg