I've Disappointed

Dear Princess Celestia... The other day, I really disappointed somepony, Abby. The pony hosting all of the roleplay groups around here. (you probably know of others though) It was only a few words she used, but I instantly knew it was me who'd affected her. And I felt guilty. After hearing confirmation that it stems from the character I use in a roleplay, I realized that I had done it all wrong. Impressions were already coming to me that my character was not going to feel welcome in her universe, and that I should have gone with a pony that's like any normal civilian instead of the magic box I sent. (F.Y.I. that means he was really overpowered) But, I had my own ideas for what I was doing. "Yeah", I told myself, "he basically devoids all tension because you know he's never in any real danger, but if this is a Trekkean universe then it's more about the characters and their interactions with each other, right?" I shouldn't have only thought to myself and told her that's what was on my mind, because at the moment he was simply tearing through dozens of her best armed forces without batting an eye. Obviously not much of an experience for her. And what's worst, I didn't even adhere to my only counterbalance, as he started treating her character like an insect instead of another real pony. The stallion's - somewhat endearing - trait of hurried shouting didn't mesh with my character, and it only brewed conflict. Wow, I'm actually getting through this... She didn't use the word exactly, but she was very frustrated by me and what another pony had done, somepony I should have also warned her about. I'm sure she had a repeat experience. (very sure about that. I can say from personal experience that I almost quit on the guy even with my unreasonably powerful characters) And like I wrote already, the experience wasn't much for her to enjoy. I see that now, and I feel bad that I was negligent before. If you're gonna ask, Celestia... No. I haven't apologized yet. I'm trying to get past my desperate 16 year-old self that would beg for forgiveness when he hurt somebody's feels. Not to mention people and ponies will be ready on their own time, not my time. That's a tough lesson in patience that I didn't understand before retrospect of my thoughts on my old girlfriend. Or, marefriend here. Gonna keep trying to stay in character... I'm sure she's a good pony and when it's all said and done, I'll have written this letter with needless time. Time I could have spent doing other productive things, but thoughts matter and need to be expressed sometimes. Left this letter a bit on the short side, but I'm also new to the letter writing idea. So it's taken me longer to write and rewrite than for you to read. Still, I hope I haven't wasted your time. Precious, useful time. --- Until I write again, ---------- Your loyal ponysona subject: Chiller Sway. P.S. If you have a smart device or a computer, subscribe to Pewdiepie. And unsub T-Series.