Earth pony/Requian
Obsilion and others
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Lives in Ponyville,
Equestria.
Born on February 20, 2002
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Imma just keep it short...I'm tired...I'm exhausted really. I don't see a reason to live on. There's no point anymore. They always say things get better, but shit just gets worse.
I attempted suicide already for the first time in years...and I haven't been able to shake it since....Ever since I felt as if I don't belong here. Like I should be alive. Really, I'm just too tired of this world.
I'm tired of the injustice. I'm tired of the betrayal. I'm tired of the evil. I'm tired of the lack of understanding. I'm tired of fake friendships. I'm tired of the myth of love. I'm tired of barely being able to afford to simply live. I'm tired of struggling. I'm tired of being complacent. I'm tired of being lied to. I'm tired of being hindered at every chance and being told to "figure it out". I'm just...tired of everything........
I don't see a reason to continue on. Nothing brings much joy anymore. Role-playing, gaming, drawing, music, nothing....I've lost all joy in anything I enjoyed...barely have much motivation anymore.....At this point, the only crutch I have is smoking....and that's just so I don't go insane and crash out on everyone around me...nothing else works. And though I work hard to try and make it..nothing I do is enough. In fact, it's all meaningless......At this point, everything thing I do...is without purpose.
....I don't know what this is supposed to be. I just needed to get this off my chest...I'm not sure I'll ever be back on this site anyway..
It was fun while it lasted I guess...I'm just done.
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Stickman, The Normal Stickian
You still have someone to help you, Obsilion. Someone to guide you through the darkness. I wouldn't give up, not by a long shot. Though if this is farewell, I'm glad with the interactions we had together. And I wouldn't trade it for anything more.
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August 10, 2024
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Snow Storm
We will be here if you come back.
I feel the pang of empathy. Please, consider contacting a help line in your area if you start to want to attempt again. It really helps to share your feelings. I hope you get some rest at least or meditate.
My message box is open if there's anything that you need... View More
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August 10, 2024
Stickman, The Normal Stickian
Well said, Snow.
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August 10, 2024
Petricor
//Nothing ever gets better. Indeed, the longer you live, the deeper you fall into the abyss. Do as you wish, I don't even know you. It's up to each person to keep themselves alive. However, remember your actions have everlasting consequences, not only for you, but those around you.
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August 11, 2024
How is everyone today?
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Hot. I'm doing a 9-2 shift and the Louisiana Heat is living up to its name. :/
Somebody just messaged me telling me about how they've been blocked out of nowhere by people they're rping with, and I say everything I can to try to comfort them and then they turn my words around to mean that I'm condemning them and then he blocked me.
Like. Seriously?
I hope he gets better. I w... View More
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July 18, 2024
*As it was my birthday, I would invite Sprouting Bulb, King Artemis, Knight Wolf (If you're still there, friend), Obsilion and others, Nitroxus Soulspins, Stardusk Strider, and Comp to the party. This... View More
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Spins, wearing a shirt that read "I WILL NOT TRY TO FOALNAP THE BIRTHDAY BOY'S DAUGHTER", showed up to the party early. Aside from the shirt that probably had the opposite effect she'd intended, she had gone all-out on her appearance, going to the trouble of actually applying makeup instead of chan... View More
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July 10, 2024
Spins nodded as he spoke, asking the occasional question. Nothing revealing, she just seemed genuinely interested in his work.
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July 10, 2024
*Random generic agents would come by with appetizers on a platter. Including a love tank for the changelings.*
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July 10, 2024
Spins immediately started chugging love, even getting into a contest with some other changelings.
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July 10, 2024
*I raise an eyebrow.* I don't believe you were invited... but welcome anyway
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July 10, 2024
*Jewel would be near Stickman.* Y'know, brother, I haven't seen much of any of our outside friends here this year... Could they be doing stuff?
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July 10, 2024
Ya boi working 2 jobs starting in a few days. Good bye social life.
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yall....every single day..it gets increasingly harder not to become a demon and crash out.....i need peace
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Don't get me wrong, I do love it, but man... I sometimes just wanna... *Demonic screeching* ...Y'know?
Been trying to keep this demon locked up, but letting go is sounding awfully enticing
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May 18, 2024
There are days where I can let things go like a Saint. But the there are days where my inner demons reminds me that the parking lot at my job as little security footage and a tire slash to a bothersome co-worker might quench my rage.
Humans an I right?
starting to get to the point where a felony or two aint sounding too bad
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May 18, 2024
*Today would be the 13th anniversary of me and my friends taking on our first ever adventure. To celebrate, Jewel and the others had set up a huge party in the USF HQ where all our friends and foes we... View More
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Hey. You've been a wonderful friend to everyone. You deserve to go all out, brother. Still can't believe it's been 13 years since our first ever adventure.
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April 16, 2024
*Nitroxus dashed out of a red pipe that was laying out on the ground. He soon smiled to them. He then passed a large gift over to them.* Happy Birthday!
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*Nitroxas would place a little figure statue of Obsillion in their personal bag.* I hope they enjoy this. I got lost after the first set of doors.
//Art by Acry Weaver of Twitter.
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Yall...I got to go. Shit just got too real for me....Everyone who needs to hear this....You know who you are........If you have that family....A family full of snakes and heathens....Just Run....It's ... View More
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Yeah, I left my family. Just couldn't handle the misogyny and racism. Never saw eye to eye with them. Glad I was able to escape. Good luck in your journey and I hope you find a family that loves you and supports you.
Ohh... that's what... Obsilion means... Well uhh, same here. I hope you find a good family that supports you as well, bud. We're here for ya if you need us.
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February 9, 2024
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