Obsilion and others

Imma just keep it short...I'm tired...I'm exhausted really. I don't see a reason to live on. There's no point anymore. They always say things get better, but shit just gets worse. I attempted suicide already for the first time in years...and I haven't been able to shake it since....Ever since I felt as if I don't belong here. Like I should be alive. Really, I'm just too tired of this world.  I'm tired of the injustice. I'm tired of the betrayal. I'm tired of the evil. I'm tired of the lack of understanding. I'm tired of fake friendships. I'm tired of the myth of love. I'm tired of barely being able to afford to simply live. I'm tired of struggling. I'm tired of being complacent. I'm tired of being lied to. I'm tired of being hindered at every chance and being told to "figure it out". I'm just...tired of everything........ I don't see a reason to continue on. Nothing brings much joy anymore. Role-playing, gaming, drawing, music, nothing....I've lost all joy in anything I enjoyed...barely have much motivation anymore.....At this point, the only crutch I have is smoking....and that's just so I don't go insane and crash out on everyone around me...nothing else works. And though I work hard to try and make it..nothing I do is enough. In fact, it's all meaningless......At this point, everything thing I do...is without purpose. ....I don't know what this is supposed to be. I just needed to get this off my chest...I'm not sure I'll ever be back on this site anyway.. It was fun while it lasted I guess...I'm just done.